The 13th of November marked two months of living on the road. We officially closed the sale of our house on the 13th as well so now we can be considered homeless. Being homeless never felt so good. I was sad to leave our little house when we left Michigan and was a bit sad again when everything was final, but I am thoroughly enjoying this traveling lifestyle and am so glad that we took the leap of faith to make it all happen. I often find myself in disbelief that we actually left everything we know and love to travel the US.
I thought I would do a little reflection post to let you all know how we are doing. I journal everyday and have had so many thoughts about so many different things that I never had the time to think of before. My mind as a mother of five was always racing about what was next and who needed to be where with what things. I didn't have the space in my thoughts to actually think about the things that truly mattered to me. My day was so scheduled and I had to be a certain place at a certain time and it NEVER ended. Don't get me wrong, I loved my life back home and there is so much richness that was to be had, but I found myself growing bitter and forgetting the things that gave me happiness. Being on the road I still have to do things like laundry, school, cook meals, and clean them up, but there is so much more space for freedom than there was before. I am able to choose to go to the park for a couple hours before dinner if we want to. When we are at the park I feel like I actually want to push my kids on the swings because I am being fulfilled and don't need to try and steal every minute I can for myself. When I was home I felt burnt out a lot of the time and so when my kids were playing I would be sucking every minute of Facebook time that I could.
Being with the kids 24 hours a day, 7 days a week has it's trials, but I can honestly say that it has not been as hard as I thought it would be. Let's face it, our family is a bit of a circus. I mean, FIVE BOYS! When we are places with people that I know my awareness of every little thing that they are doing is heightened. Being in this sort of hyper aware state can be wearing at times. Since we really don't know anyone the places that we go, I am much more relaxed and have been able to allow the kids to be who they are without feeling embarrassed. Teaching them has had it's hardships. In fact after today I don't really want to do school tomorrow, ha! The thing that I love most about teaching them though is that now I know them on a whole different level. As their mother, I thought I knew everything there was to know of each of my kids, but being their teacher has really opened my eyes to them in a good way. As the days go by I can see our relationships changing because we are the only 7 people we have most of the time. I have been able to joke with my older boys and giggle more with my little boys. I am not sure if that has more to do with the fact that our relationship is being nurtured with time spent or if it is because I now have more time to stop and to enjoy/notice those little joys.
Living in a 5th wheel has some annoyances. None of us really hate them or wish that we lived in a house because we are all enjoying this journey, but there are definitely some annoyances. Every campground has a different rule to keep their water pumps from freezing. The campground we are at makes you completely disconnect your water hose from their pump. So every night before we go to bed we draw straws to see which one of us has to go and disconnect the water in the cold. Our showers have to be strategically timed. Brad and I end up hanging out in our bedroom most nights because it is too cold to be outside and we don't want to keep the kids up. I really miss my oven at home. These are all things that are kind of annoying, but don't bother us completely. I am not sure if it was because we spent a lot of our time in our house all together and shared bedrooms, if we prepared ourselves a little bit mentally for the change, or if the life that we are experiencing with being able to see so much just makes those things matter so little.
About 2 or 3 weeks ago I noticed that the kids were having kind of a hard time. Three of them had a little bit of a down day where they missed friends and wanted home. I questioned if what we were doing was right because I want everything to be good and right for them. Brad reminded me that we would have bad/down days even if we were at home. It was a great reminder. We are going to have some hard days being away from the friends and family that we love. Since that time I have not noticed them being down from missing home. Yesterday I said to my oldest, "I love this life!" He answered with out skipping a beat, "yeah I do too." The kids miss some of their people fiercely, but they are really finding joy in the experiences that we are having as well. They love trying new things and have been looking forward to moving when we have been somewhere for awhile. They still fight like brothers, but I can see them relying and helping each other a little more than they ever used to. It has been neat to sit back and watch.
So we still have some hard days just like we would if we were home, but we are all being fulfilled in so many different ways. I am so looking forward to continuing our journey and I can't wait to see how the rest of this unfolds. There is so much more that I could say, but hopefully this gives you a little peak into how we are managing. We miss you all dearly!